"Who are you? You are the the truth out screaming these lies. You are the truth, saving my life."

There's so much going on with my life lately, and I'm trying not to get caught up and taken away in it.

My father's MS has been bad lately.  It scares me, and it hurts so much to see him in pain.  One of the days this week he could barely walk.  When I think about it, I just, my heart hurts for him.  I love my father so much.  He is my rock, my best friend.  He is such a big part of me and my life, and the thought of him possibly being taken away from me kills.  He is the strongest person I know. 

My dad has turned his life around so much.  Just a year ago,  my dad was a completely different man.  He was a pot head, alcoholic, and he used cocaine.  I had no idea, it was his secret.  He told me about it, and from that moment on, he changed. 

My dad has always been a huge part of my life.  He's been there for me through everything, especially all the times my mom wasn't around. 

Seeing him struggle, seeing him have to take shots everyday, or not being able to go to his patriot foot ball games, or working.. it overwhelms me.  I want him to be there for everything.  I want him to see my graduation, help me pick a college,  start up a career, walk me down the aisle, and meet his grandchildren.  He may be around for all that, but there's a possibility he won't. 

People spend their whole lives looking for a person like my father.  and he's part of my life.  The pain is unbearable.