"Who are you? You are the the truth out screaming these lies. You are the truth, saving my life."

I finally went on a much needed bike ride tonight.  It wasn't long because I haven't gone in three weeks so I need to ease myself back into the habit.
When I bike, it's the only time I can really escape from everything.  I hear my heart beating,  I feel the pain shooting through my body, and I just keep pushing myself.  I think of everything that's going on with me.  I can cry and nobody is there to tell me what I'm feeling is wrong.  It's the only time I feel so alive and alert and aware of who I am.


so much to say.
I'm not ready to say it yet, though.

<3.